[---~*My Perfect Love*~---]

Thursday, December 11, 2008

{*Thinking of past, now and future*}

After reading a few posted that i once wrote, a sudden feeling that i have now is regret. I dun know why but the past is still a huge matter to me. Although i dun mind seeing my ex face to face, i still able to remember the good memories with him. The innocent love that truly comes from the heart. I totally forgotten how wonderful i was as a person before knowing him. Had this first love truly changed the person that i once was? So Puzzled with my life. Is my life now a huge screw up? I never regret of knowing my bf, wei jie now as he is one sweet guy who can read my mind and understand me very well. May be becos that we are friends for 3 yrs before being together as a couple. 1 yr and 8 months relationship is like that. I think it is sweet but something is missing in the relationship but i dun know what it is.

My uni results totally screwed up and i felt sad with my life. Once a glory life that i had with excellent grades. In uni, my grades are like from bad to worst. DOo not know whether i can survive in uni to get the damn paper. haiz.

Although christmas is coming, that festival gives me a lot of memories. memories that i did not know how to cherish it at the moment. If i can do this or don't do that, will the relationship still continue? I afraid not as the relationship changed once both personality started to change.

For the relationship now, I will have to stand tall and strong. I have to change my bad temper as it is getting out of hand. I must be in control of it instead of it controlling me. How can i be sweet to wei jie? how can i treat him well so i can keep him by my side? the final question: is he the one for me eventually? so many doubts i can not answer. haiz i hope my future may give me that answer.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 1:38 AM

Saturday, March 01, 2008

{*SimPLy Me*}

I am going to give 101% of my best on these 3 stupid tests. I think i am going to rely myself on having the ability to spend on those things i really want. Buying the things that i always wish for is what makes me happy as i am capable of having such amount of money to pamper myself. Going to pamper myself after all my tests. HOping to get more ang baos for my birthday celebration on this coming sat. yay. 21 isn't going easier as ever. Learn from the hard and enjoy the fruit of success in the end. Love that kind of feeling of shock and surprise. After my uni life, i am going to travel to another country, Russia ( if i have the ability to go there after 3 yrs of saving). Hopefully, i can go during winter time so that i can freeze there and feel the texture of snow. it is like going to 4am and i am still blogging. Okie for now, i am going to wake up early to continue chapter 3. haiz. still got 3 1/2 chapters to go for MA. I am so going to love MA. Finally, i understand Management Science. Yay.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 3:43 AM