having a day off from hanging out with friends and preparing of the camp. missing a lot of maty friends though no matter whether they are jc, sec or poly friends. friends are like the essential things that i require in my life at this moment or point of my life. no boyfriend is alrite. haha as long i have my darlings aka good friends with me, that's all it matters. haha. no rush in finding one. ate the chocolate cake that xue yi made for us. it is very nice. she is able to be a good mother or wife one dae. it is very sweet of her to make it. haha. i feel that a day passed by very quickly. tml going to meet up with them again as we are going to have a steamboat at en en's house. then sundae, going to suntan with qtss ppl and wendy at sentosa. haha. going to have brown tan soon. haha. the tan i always hoping for. haha. but have to tan for quite often in order to have the tan permanently. haha. thinking that i should have made a decision soon. may be after my grades. haha. should not waste my time in thinking of the past when i have a bright future ahead of me. the onli thing i can change is the present and future. haha. i have a control with my future. haha. i sound like i am in control with my life.haha. wrote a lot of stuffs lately. i am thinking of staying over at my uncle's place as i want to spend time with my cousins especially the small cute guy. i want to buy stuffs. haha. having the itch to get something for myself during holidaes. happy with life once again. haha. my mom scolded me again about my phone bill. haha so for those who wants to look for me, pls call my hp as i have free in coming call or call my house if you can not get thru my hp. haha. thanks guys.
finally able to blog for a while. i believe that god has given me a sign to move on. i have to live my life to the fullest no matter wat. thinking that there is always someone out there for me. i will find him when the time is right. not sure whether i should give myself a chance to like someone a lot. i think he knows how i feel for him. i am kinda of shocked. haha. glad that things did not work out that bad. i have a B for my advanced engineering mathematics. haha. happy that i got B at least. haha. it is like wat i expect to get for it before i start revising for it. still got like 10 more days to know my results of my core modules. hope i can get a few As and my gpa will be like 3.5 and above. haha. *crossing my fingers* i really want to enter into university no matter wat. i want to be an engineer instead of a technician. haha. have to really buck up for the next few semester and no more holidaes. hoping things may turn out better between us no matter whether we will be best friends or more than that. liking someone is hoping that the person is able to find his happiness as when he is happy, i am happy too. i am just pure simple person but i have big dreams. haha. going to have a wedding to attend in nov. hehe.
tmr i will be having the last paper. decide to blog. haha. tmr is my so called last paper, MI. a total killer module. i hope i can just pass it as i dun want to retake it. haha. i am going to relax myself tmr like spending time with my friends. haha. man, gwen is a good song writer haha but now, she does not have any inspiration yet. i hope she will find the guy who will give her lifetime of inspirations. haha. wei ye and his band rox too. haha. i need to rest. i am so stress now. haha. holidae is coming. haha. i will be busy going out with ppl. i hope so. haha. have to search for jobs. haha.
tok to a few of my friends last night. it is like i did not noe there are so many things happen to their lives. how i wish that i can take their pain away from them and make them become happy. a smile from them seems like diamonds to me which mean their smiles are precious. please dun give any promises when you are about to leave as you may not know who you will be hurting. the msg is to anyone who wants to give promise to those you love or once loved. dun promise one thing when you know that the future is unpredictable. i realie pray god to take good care of them and make their lives as happy as always. they are those who i truly love and have touched my soul. i dun wish to see anyone of them getting hurt and burnt in the end. i hope that they may become stronger after each setback. i am stronger now after the first major setback that i have experienced not long ago. please dun ask yourself why this type of thing happens to me. think of the future ahead of you. think how you can change your fate that you are holding as time will not wait for you at all. you have to continue making good use of the time. time is always running short.
exams are around the corner. i have to study study. haha. something unexpected happened last nite. a very shocking news for me. did not expected that it will ever happen to these two ppl who are such a good friends of mine. life is realie very unexpected. 2 yrs of passion turns out that it is not enuff to stop the temptation of singlihood??? i feel that if you ever want to break up with someone, you better think extremely properly first before making any move as you may not know what is the feeling of loneliness during night time. when you noe that you are unable to be with someone who you love anymore, you are unable to eat anything even though it is like a bowl of soup. i felt like that before. the daes of it were so terrible as i recalled. i almost have gastric pain at that time. everydae was like crying 24/7 for 2 months. thankfully those dark moments are gone. i am so grateful for those ppl who tok to me on the phone to comfort me during tat time. thanks a lot of helping me to stand up again. those memories that i want to treasure, i will keep them deep in my heart. no matter whether it is good and bad as life is all abt bitter and sweet.
just had cmb test todae. i think i am going to fail though. no longer have faith in myself and everything besides me. exams are like two more weeks. wei lian won todae. haha. his victory let me believe that there is still miracle and fairy tale in life. life is too short. it is like always you are missing out things that happens becos of you. you dun have to go around to pls ppl as there is no point of doing it when you are not happy with yourself and the things tat you are doing.
a 4 months semester, to you all, it may seems very long. for me, it felt so short. may be becos a lot of things have happened in this short period of time. a lot of things that give me happy memories as well as sad ones. i always believe in god may take away all my sorrow and replace them with happiness. guess wat?? i thought wrong. god is trying to let me be stronger everytime something bad happens. things are not that good to look at the surface as you may not noe whether you have found a gem in that person. haha. anyway, hoping for the best that will come to my life even though i noe that nothing unexpected may happen.
{*She Loves*}
Chicken Pasta from New York New York
Dim Sum (Ha Kua and Fu Pi Juan)
Sun tan with friends
my darling
my friends
Travelling around the world
{*She Hates*}
people who backstab me
people who blame me for nothing
People who thinks that they are always right
{*Sweeties*}
gwen;
wen xu;
keshia;
sing yen;
sing wei;
shawn ang;
jiaxin;
wei ye;
siao ying;
Jee Cheng;
Adelynn;
Kong Chian;
kai ying;
liang wei;
Shi Qi;
fabian;
Irene;
lay yuen;
yu yin;
Pei Ying;
Salleh;
Marie;
kaiting;
Benedict;
kristie;
desmond;
yi hui;
alex;
Brenda;
Janice;
Joanne;
Kim Guan aka Guan Guan;
Sharon;
Loh hu;
Si Yin