[---~*My Perfect Love*~---]

Sunday, October 31, 2004

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ANGEL AND DEVIL by Avery Robertson
I'm your angel,
but I can be desire;
turn your world inside out,
mark you with my fyre.

I can pull you back with
a word or phrase;
I know you, your pleasure,
take you inside this craze.

I'm your devil,
tempt you with my lust;
till you're filled with only me..
my voice in your heart a must.

Take you up, then down,
make you smile then rage;
sooth your savage soul,
then turn another page.

I say "I will" then I don't,
I know I can be a tease;
but there's only you for me,
only "you" will I, can I please.

I run then return,
don't think I don't try;
I'm hard then soft,
my silent mournful cry.

Bought and sold
into this wild world;
you can count on me,
Angel or Devil, baby, I'm your girl

this is a poem that i dedicated to edric. i have to get a skirt as i think i look pretty in skirts haha. no lar. have short and ugly pair of legs. i just want to be more like a gal in my bro's engagement instead of always wearing a pair of pants and a normal t shirt. a week of my holidae has just pass away like this. still have 5 more weeks to go and 1 week and a few daes more to noe my examinations results. i think i did not do quite well for it. haiz. watched shark tale with ed todae. i give that show 4 out of 5 stars. i love it. haha. i think i am abt to finish making ed's christmas present. still left somethings for mi to buy. hehe. not going to tell him wat i am getting for him. haha. it is like my hard work so i hope he like it. he better like it no matter wat as i will kill him if he dun like it.haha. going to wrap it soon. haha.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 10:38 PM

Monday, October 25, 2004

{*talent time 2004*}

todae i went to watch talent time with en en, wen xu, kc, des and salleh at qtss. the talent time was slightly worse than last year but envious this year's sec 4s as they are able to watch it lor. i heard from my friend that christopher lee is going back to qtss to perform. haha. dun noe how the students going to react when seeing him. haha. went to play pool and bowl with them after that. i dun noe. i realie dun noe. my mom seems to onli care abt whether edric sms mi or call mi whenever she just calls mi. she will ask these first. i realie dun noe whether i am important or him to her. seriously whose mother will ask that to your daughter. if i told her that he did not call or sms mi, she will think that he is cheating on mi. she keeps doubting him for no good reasons. i'm just sick of my mom keep asking questions abt my relationship. i feel that she is like invading my private life. i noe i owe her a lot of things but that does not mean that she is able to invade my personal life.i think my mom will cry more than mi if i tell her that i am going to break with him one dae (that dae will never comes). i feel like my mom is more in love with my bf than i am in love with him. i have to tell her why my bf did not call mi , did not do this and that and etc. i have to give her reasons. i realie sick of lying to her that why he can not call or etc. when i ask edric why can't you call, he sae" why you always do this to mi?", i feel depressed as i realie dun noe wat to deal with the problem. i wanted to cry but my bro just dun let mi cry as he sae that i should not cry whenever i am sad. i feel so terrible if i dun cry. the feeling is just that i can realie do wat i want to do in my life. everyone try to noe things abt the relationship and ppl telling mi not to do this when i want to do the most. i am realie in such a dilemma now. i think i am going to be crazy one dae. even my dad dun think that i will get 90 over for my exams and his minimum expectation is A for every subject which is 80 and above. even the onli guy i love who i noe he loves mi a lot also sae that why i always do stuffs to hurt him. if i did, i am realie sorrie as i am depressed nowadays. no one is there for mi to cry one. whenever i am sad, i will just look at the sky and asking god why i feel like this, why. whenever i sad, i just feel like killing myself which i noe it is stupid to think that as ed always sae that. but life is all abt dying and reborn. whenever my mom's cry, my bro always think it is my fault. my mom's tears are always for my bro. she has not even cry a single tear for mi. she always care whether my bro will be at home or not. she always think of him. sometimes i realie doubt whether i am her child. i feel like i am just like a dying person now. emotion of sadness is always in mi. i always give a happy face and act strong whenever i am with anyon. however, when i reach home, i will just cry my heart out and thinking whether my life has a meaning for mi to noe. a meaning that is so hard for mi to find out and i searching until i just feel like giving up in trying anymore.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 11:05 PM

Friday, October 22, 2004

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finally, it is holidae time. i pretty like examinations as it is a test for how much information is able to be stored in that small brain of mine. during revision for the paper, you are able to feel the stress of the desire to do better for the exams. tmr will be the openhouse. i am going for sure to support my friends. i have to stay that for hours as i have to wait for the open house to end in order to have dinner with him. haha. just hope that tmr will be a happy dae. edric read my previous entry when he is bored. now i noe that my blog is boring. thanks to you, ed. haha. anyway, i am saying sorrie to him as i said that he whines as he whines even more. haha.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 8:03 PM

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

{*hihi*}

Another boring entry of my life. haha. todae is my gd friend, alan's birthdae. wish him all the best for his future.haha. i am very happy for edric as he will be able to be promoted as he is able to pass the minimum requirement for the promotion. so for now, i will not hear him whinning. haha. i think he is going to kill mi when he read this entry. love him so much haha. i can't wait for sat to come as ed is performing haha. i am still in the mid of my examation period. still have two more daes of sufferings and i am able to be free from studies for 6 weeks haha. chalets and bbq are coming my way. haha. love it . sadly that i still have not bought my friends' birthdae presents as i am busy with my school works and preparation for my exams. haha. i think after fridae, i will be going out a lot.so i will be bankcrupt soon haha. save some money for christmas as there are so many to buy. haiz.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 3:00 PM

Monday, October 18, 2004

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Haven't write anything for a very long time. been realie busy with school work. dyed my hair. i look funny as it is like very brown. i told the hair dresser that i want a new look so she recommended mi to dye my hair. so i did. everyone sae i look great except my uncle who likes to pull my hair as he thinks my hair is longer than his. haha. (it was pretty lame). Lameness runs in my family as my cousins will laugh at their own jokes even though they haven't finished saying everything of the jokes yet. it runs in my blood so i am lame too. i know i am suppose to study for my exams but i kinda of giving up hopes on tmr's paper as i dun understand it. i have the least confident of passing compared to other papers. haiz. still got like 4 more daes to my holidaes. yay. i love holidaes as i can be like a pig for 6 weeks. haha. something that is quite irony as first time i heard my bro saying. he goes " ger, you seems like loosing a lot of weight. better eat more". he usually will sae i am fat. i was stunned to hear him saying that lor. i can't wait for sat to come as my gd pals and ed are performing for their open house. my gd pal, tc's birthdae is this thurs. i am like dead meat as i haven't bought him a present. i think i am buying it after my exams at orchard. going shopping on fridae. shop for my dear pal's present. it is very difficult to buy guy's presents as they are like "anything". guys always blame on gals for their mood swings when they are in the middle of an agrument. it is not realie the gal's fault. it is just some stupid misunderstanding.it is weird as sometimes gals think that guys dun realie understand them. it is not they dun understand us, it is they may just have too many things to do. if gals are so easy for guys to understand, the relationship may be boring as the guys will noe wat the gal is going to do next. i am planning a bbq on nov holidae, any qtssians or poly friends interested, pls tell mi on the tagboard and leave your real name. haha. ty so much.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 7:23 PM

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*Kissed My Love* @ | 7:06 PM