Today supposed to be a happy festive event. i feel like crying out of a sudden but i can't cry. i am not suppose to cry todae. my life seems so mixed up now. felt so alone now. why am i feeling this? dun feel like eating anything. the feelings just come so suddenly. i got almost all of the things that i can use money to buy but why feelings and emotions just keep making me crying? my parents seems so happy but why can't i have that smile on my face? am i destined to be a lonely soul that roams around the world without anyone noticing me? the thing that happens now seems to be like history repeated itself. i am not sure my studies will make me go happy? trying to make myself busy by helping out in the open house. do anyone really want me ? the reason that they want me is it solely because they need a companion? will i be that special someone in someone's heart? lotsa of things flashing in my mind. lots of past moments with the guys who i truly like. that must be something about me that prevent them from liking me back? am i just fat or ugly? why love is so hard to find or i am just plain choosy? for now, i know i have friends with me but when i need them, they may not be here for me as they have their own problem. may be i should isolate myself in a box? a box no one can find. i will try my best to earn lotsa of money to fill up the emptiness i felt for feelings and emotions. i did not know i love him so much until the day he left me. why ppl tend to regret when that special someone left you? is regret a essential thing that exist in people's lives? will the feelings of love come back to me sooner or later? i really don't know.
{*She Loves*}
Chicken Pasta from New York New York
Dim Sum (Ha Kua and Fu Pi Juan)
Sun tan with friends
my darling
my friends
Travelling around the world
{*She Hates*}
people who backstab me
people who blame me for nothing
People who thinks that they are always right
{*Sweeties*}
gwen;
wen xu;
keshia;
sing yen;
sing wei;
shawn ang;
jiaxin;
wei ye;
siao ying;
Jee Cheng;
Adelynn;
Kong Chian;
kai ying;
liang wei;
Shi Qi;
fabian;
Irene;
lay yuen;
yu yin;
Pei Ying;
Salleh;
Marie;
kaiting;
Benedict;
kristie;
desmond;
yi hui;
alex;
Brenda;
Janice;
Joanne;
Kim Guan aka Guan Guan;
Sharon;
Loh hu;
Si Yin