• i want to lose weight (gain back my 25" waist)
• my lovely samsoon DVD/VCD
• sunglasses
• get into IBN
• see everyone who i know to be happy as they used to be
• able to find the one for me
• learn how to play a musical instrument
• have long hair

wow. i did not know that i want so many things. haha. but haiz. dun feel like celebrating my birthday. can you imagine that you celebrating your cousin's birthdae and it is not celebrating together? how weird it is. i think i will cry if i go there. i feel that my bro knows how i feel sometimes as he was like don't go to the party and we celebrate your birthday together on that day. i was happy at that point of time. my mom was like may be not going as she think my birthday is more important than going there. may be celebrating my birthday at a club on my 21st birthday. haha. it must be something huge. haha. looking forward to that moment. invite all of my friends who are close to me. haha. hopefully attached at that point of time.

i read someone's blog. how wonderful if the guy who you are with or married to, remember every small details of the relationship. knowing this fact, it simply able to make me cry like a baby. will anyone really sincerely accept my beauty and overlook my flaws. i am still struggling to believe that true love don't exist anymore after a few very bad experiences. guys have their ugly side. thinking of doing rock climbing and hiking after i graduated from np. may be try sky diving. haha. later i die of heart attack. hmmm. i will be a good ger this year, will angel be my guardian??