i cried again. is it possible that i am suffering from depression? hmmm. i am unable to take it after telling my mom things that are not true about my past relationship with my first love. saying things like it is my fault that we end up broken hearts and i am not a good gf to him. things that i sae to make him seems so superior and make me feel like i am nothing than a ger who unable to speak up for her rights? am i such a ger? making me repeatedly thinking of the wonderful and bad things abt my first love. i always wanted to believe that it was the most wonderful thing happened to me. i really want to think that way. why do i have to make it sound like a extremely bad one and putting myself down to make her recover from her depression? it really affect me a lot. sometimes i will be like so stress up that i turn to panadols to relieve my stress and headache that i always have lately. will i be addictive to them? things are always against me. think may be i want to stay with my friends for valentine day as i dun want to get involved with guys. simply afraid that my mom will suffer depression again if i break up with next guy who my mom likes a lot.
{*She Loves*}
Chicken Pasta from New York New York
Dim Sum (Ha Kua and Fu Pi Juan)
Sun tan with friends
my darling
my friends
Travelling around the world
{*She Hates*}
people who backstab me
people who blame me for nothing
People who thinks that they are always right
{*Sweeties*}
gwen;
wen xu;
keshia;
sing yen;
sing wei;
shawn ang;
jiaxin;
wei ye;
siao ying;
Jee Cheng;
Adelynn;
Kong Chian;
kai ying;
liang wei;
Shi Qi;
fabian;
Irene;
lay yuen;
yu yin;
Pei Ying;
Salleh;
Marie;
kaiting;
Benedict;
kristie;
desmond;
yi hui;
alex;
Brenda;
Janice;
Joanne;
Kim Guan aka Guan Guan;
Sharon;
Loh hu;
Si Yin