Feeling more and more miserable lately. I dun noe why. everything is like in the past yet the wound seems hurt even more lately. i thought i can forget abt the love that he had given me and i able to find someone who love me more than him. Sadly, i know a few guys want that chance to do so. my heart just won't listen. it kept telling me that he is the best. i really miss the old him. where is he? i have lost that person for so long. Will i find that person again? kept crying for no reason? when a person cry, it means that she do not know what to do. Now, i really dun noe what i should do about my life. i want to stop crying but i just can't. I think i am experiencing what i had been through last year. It seems start all over again. Do not have any appetitie and slp. kept dreaming of the past.
I even cry when i am dreaming. i really want to be strong. i am so hurt right now. do not know how to express myself. all alone now. crying without anyone here. i am getting deeper into my own world. a world that only has misery. Lost the feeling of true love and unable to love anyone again. I truly want to give one of my admirers a chance just that i am scared to be hurt again as i know i am unable to take it anymore.
I am no longer the sunshine ger that i was two months ago. I thought getting good grades and work done will make me happy. However, it does not give me what i want. If i am able to go back to the past, i really want to change everything such as did not say yes to him. May be i will be happier now. love really is a bittersweet thing. Out of sudden, i felt so lonely but i dun want to be with anyone becos of that. i want to be with someone that i have feelings for.
{*She Loves*}
Chicken Pasta from New York New York
Dim Sum (Ha Kua and Fu Pi Juan)
Sun tan with friends
my darling
my friends
Travelling around the world
{*She Hates*}
people who backstab me
people who blame me for nothing
People who thinks that they are always right
{*Sweeties*}
gwen;
wen xu;
keshia;
sing yen;
sing wei;
shawn ang;
jiaxin;
wei ye;
siao ying;
Jee Cheng;
Adelynn;
Kong Chian;
kai ying;
liang wei;
Shi Qi;
fabian;
Irene;
lay yuen;
yu yin;
Pei Ying;
Salleh;
Marie;
kaiting;
Benedict;
kristie;
desmond;
yi hui;
alex;
Brenda;
Janice;
Joanne;
Kim Guan aka Guan Guan;
Sharon;
Loh hu;
Si Yin